Feeling vulnerable and taking risks

I am often a huge hypocrite when I show derision for men who have trouble sharing their emotions. It is true that there is a subtle push for men to be far more assertive and less emotionally available. It is also true that men have emotions and that it is okay to have emotions. However, as men, we are encouraged to show certain emotions more than others. We are encouraged to be more aggressive and assertive and allowed to show anger more than most. Being sad and vulnerable is discouraged. Times have changed a lot and many men do not … Continue reading Feeling vulnerable and taking risks

Crisis of masculinity

Is masculinity under attack? Are straight white men the last acceptable group to demonize? Both of these are fairly damning questions and are difficult to answer without some reframing and a long discussion. But let me attempt to answer one major problem that I see myself facing and probably other young men facing. I have difficulty making friends and reading body language and this has meant I have tended to be extremely literal. I often had difficulty understanding abstract concepts and how my behavior, body language, and words effected other people. I got caught up in my own head with … Continue reading Crisis of masculinity

Dias de los Muertos Sabado (second draft)

I am writing this in order to warn anybody who will listen. I know people will automatically assume I am a cuck or that I am someone who has turned my back on what makes the red pill community what it is but I don’t care. Even if there is only the slightest chance someone might heed this warning, it is necessary. I find it ironic that for all of my bluster and anger it took me until my life was in danger to figure out my mistakes. Like you all, I was a member of the red pill community. … Continue reading Dias de los Muertos Sabado (second draft)

Culture Wars???

Before I begin I would like to give a shout out to Benjamin Dixon and Anoa Changa who are both excellent voices in these tumultuous times. Both have inspired me and you should totally subscribe to their Youtube channels and podcasts.  Culture wars will have a different impact on you depending on your ideology. If you are right leaning it is a desperate fight to bring back American culture and religious life to what you imagine the 1950’s were like. For those who are more left it is a defense for all the hard fought civil rights earned for marginilized … Continue reading Culture Wars???

Thesis Inspiration Part 3

I would like to summarize so far what I admire about the people whom I have discussed so far and what that might tell me about myself, if I was the client. I admire the resolve and courage of Severus Snape. I recognize the flaws and how difficult his life was and even part of me still dislikes him. But he was the kind of teacher you don’t want but the kind of teacher you need. He taught me things regardless of whether I wanted it. He taught me that sometimes, we don’t get what we want or what we … Continue reading Thesis Inspiration Part 3

Author’s thoughts

Hey fam, this is your author Shade here reflecting on my first major short story I’ve completed on here. The Dias de los Muertos series of short stories is something I’ve been dreaming up for a while but this first story is very spicy. In the world today, the crisis facing young men is quite staggering. However, many do not take a path that I personally would. The success of right wing crazies around the world is partially due to alienation and the inability of young men to make their way in the world. I sympathize as, I too have … Continue reading Author’s thoughts

Dias de los Muertos: Sabado (Complete)

  I am writing this in order to warn anybody who will listen. I know people will automatically assume I am a cuck or that I am someone who has turned my back on what makes the red pill community what it is but I don’t care. Even if there is only the slightest chance someone might heed this warning, it is necessary. I find it ironic that for all of my bluster and anger it took me until my life was in danger to figure out my mistakes. Like you all, I was a member of the red pill … Continue reading Dias de los Muertos: Sabado (Complete)

Dias de los Muertos: Sabado finale

The library in my dream was even colder this time, if that is possible. This time the masked figure was waiting for me. I didn’t even try to escape this time. The figure gestured at me and I felt magnetically attracted to following it. We winded down corridors and eventually found ourselves in a massive chamber. It had a stained glass sealing with hieroglyphs and runes. It was almost comical, because they really didn’t mixed well. The walls also had carvings of chickens with multiple beaks. The word cuck was inscribed in the wall. The masked figure sniggered derisively. I … Continue reading Dias de los Muertos: Sabado finale

Dias de los Muertos: Sabado parte 6

The week afterwards was the longest week of my life. Every night I would return to that labyrinth of a library. Each time the masked figure would chase me and corner me. Every time the icy horror would seize me and I would run regardless of the fact that I actively knew I couldn’t escape. Every night eh library would have new corridors and would even have special rooms. Sometimes I would see people in the rooms having horrible things happening to them. The most common was Kristina, being assaulted by the masked figure. I would always look away and … Continue reading Dias de los Muertos: Sabado parte 6